i have the sneaking suspicion that the friends that i have dont really like me. take lastnight, i was at braydon's house and everyone would disappear. like literally everyone. so i would go and find them. and when i did, less than five minutes later they just kinda walked away from me. it seemed like everytime i would walk up, they would leave. honestly if your gonna invite someone to a party, atleast be nice enough to talk to them or include them in convo. apparently since i was the ONLY one without a g/f in the little group of people, that makes me not cool enough to hang out.

i hate it when your with people that WERE your friends and you thought they still are and your talking about something....oh lets say.....lack of a g/f. and everything you say there like " oh david.....no.....your gross" and you cant tell if they are joking or they really mean it. sometimes i can tell. but the times that i cant really pisses me off. ::::cough::::cough::::jenilee:::cough::::

am i actually hideous and gross? because thats the vibe i get from everybody now adays. if i am let me know. so i dont continue to walk around and think i'm not. i'd rather know if i was so i could either: 1. change it or 2. not talk to anyone anymore.

this has been one long and lonesome week.

something around me really smells like butt. its gross.

so i feel like i'm not actually friends with anyone. like all the "cool" kids say hi to me in the halls. but thats it. i am to the like andrew browell is to me. i like andrew, hes cool. but i dont want to hang out with him all the time. if hes around, sure i'll talk with him. but i'm not gonna call him on the weekend to hang out. thats how i feel that other people think of me. and thats not cool. its really depressing.

i'm no longer off the market. and it sucks.

the highschool "girl" selection bores me. nobody takes my breath away anymore. everyone is subpar. but i have no chance with the people who leave me breathless.

i hate it when i'm with my sister and we see people she knew in highschool, and these people are so beautiful, but i would have no chance because of the age difference.

i want someone to kiss on new year's night.

seeing someone after a long time of not, is bittersweet sometimes. it depends on who it is. you know this person and then the go off to....oh....lets say college, and before they went you didnt notice anything special about them. but they come home and you realize how amazing they are. literally take your breath away. and you just cant stop looking at them because you've fallen in love. god i hate that.

why cant the girls that have there priorities straight, the ones that respect themselves, the ones that just have everything together, why cant they fall in love with me?

theres nothing more attractive to me than a girl that has goals and aspirations.

"the sight of bridges and balloons make calm canaries irritable."

::::sigh::::

so i was tagged by Ant like a bajillion years ago. so here it is, well i think i'm the david that was tagged, well here goes nothing:

1. sometimes when i'm bored i go to my room and put on my suit or my sport coat and see how many different outfits i can make with it. knowing the whole time that i'm never gonna wear the creations i have made.

2. i've wanted to wash my car for like a month now. and i did the other day, but i only sprayed it off and didnt scrub it. so now it looks just as bad as it did before i washed it,  its now dirty at different spots.

3. when i was a kid i used to sit on my skateboard holding a trash bag. and i used to let the wind pull me. it was like a sailboat on the road. it was awesome.

4. i dont like change, like nickels and dimes. i lose them more often than i use them.

5. my sister convinced me one time that moist towelettes tasted good in the car. so the whole ride home i was licking one. it didnt taste good. and i found out that my sister wasnt licking the wetnap.

ok i'm tagging:

1 lindsey garrett

2. sarah blantz

3. natalie

4. rachael gross

5. kaitlin black.

i'm finally off the market. it feels really good,

its nice to know that people find me sexier than i find myself.

i've got a nice set of double date buddies. thats always stellar.

::::sigh::::: life is good.